I Miss The Fire

I hate that your so quiet,I miss your stage it's,the way you can play guitar like  no one. Don't think the world isn't watching.I have introduced people to you .Can't wait to be inspired by Fire again.This isn't long but I will say thank you for helping me to want my music dreams more .The skies the limit.

Times are changing

I loved my SBL family but times are changing.I never expected to stop liking musicians  because of their fans but that's happening.Makes me treasure the4 or 5 people I can trust.People don't care they want recognition and power trips.I don't know what's going to happen. I remind myself these are all fish.they are a ll sink or swim.but I do know one thing .uffda the end

The Latest take on the Challenge Rivals 2

I was blown away by this episode. And sad because I feel like Diem deserved to be in the final more than any of those other girls and I don't get why CT and Wes didn't save her ass.Was it because they have issues with her partner Aneesa? Was it pressure from other players ?Or was it fear?
Maybe just maybe CT realized his true feelings for Diem. Figuring out that the person is meant for you can be a really scary thing.
I am happy that CT and Wes made it to the final but I really question their judgement.
As for the other people playing the game they are the fakes not Diem.Diem to me is the southern girl with the heart of gold. CT is the bad boy who doesn't want to admit that maybe the bad boy is finally about to be reformed by his southern belle.

Yeah the show that hooked me

I admit it I keep coming back for more Real World /Road Rules Challenge and this seasons Rivals 3 has been exciting.I have to admit my two favorites are CT and Diem.What I don't get is why they keep dancing around the fact that they are soul mates and meant to be together.Diem talked about that force that keeps bringing her back.That force is called "fate" especially when you are soul mates.You can't run from your soulmate you'll always be pulled right back to that person.I remember back to when I was first falling in love with my hubby.Its that same force that keeps bringing Diem back to CT.Diem brings out all the great things in CT and that is the side I love about CT.Amidst the tough guy image is a teddy bear with a heart of gold,they balance each other in a way no one else can.Deep down I don't think CT wants to let Diem go he almost lost her to a beast called cancer.
This brings me to Johnny and Paula I think they are jealous of CT and Diem.Johnny just rubs me the wrong way . So yeah I rambled about the challenge but it feels good.

The week before SBL

It's the week before Spencer Bell Legacy show in Madison ,WI.For those not familiar with Spencer Bell you can check out this link www.spencerbellmemorial.ning.com .Its impossible to describe the energy right now but I will try.The energy is almost magical with everyone people are in great spirits as we come together to celebrate Spencer's music ,legacy that lives on but most importantly raise money for adrenal cancer .
Some of us will travel from far corners this week ,others will be watching via the World Wide Web.One thing is for sure there are no words that can accurately describe this man or his music. One thing will also continue to be true long after the last glass has been raised in toast to gratitude.We must find a cure for adrenal cancer.

A three year journey has come to an end!!!!

 When Josh and I began our breastfeeding journey 3 years ago I never imagined I would nurse for so long but as time passed and amidst pressure from various people to wean him I stood my ground.In my heart I knew that he needed his mama's milk.Last week I realized my milk was gone I am not sure why I stopped producing maybe it was simply my body's way of saying I am done but I knew that the time had come to wean Josh.I have learned a few things about breastfeeding and myself along the way:
1)Don't let anyone push you around when it comes to you and your baby's nursing relationship~let your body and heart and little one tell you when the journey is over.
2)Persevere and find support~for me that was wonderful friends including my best friend who was my doula during labor and helped me so much in the days following Josh's birth.
3)Ignore the stares~I am sure I got a lot of strange looks when I nursed in public because I am not a small chested girl but I kept going even had women come up and say good for you at a fair one time.
4)And Finally Cherish the Journey~Josh started preschool a few weeks ago and I realized that he is already growing up so quickly.Cherish the snuggles and nursing sessions.
5)Don't Judge others when it comes to nursing ~I did I feel so bad the thing I have come to know is not everyone can nurse  don't judge them if you don't know why they can't.
Joshua,
Thank you for being my buddy on this amazing nursing journey and for letting me have the experience I always wanted.I love you Mommy

The day I met Sarah Palin

The day I met my political hero was an amazing day.I convinced Lindsay to go see Sarah Palin with me.We had to get her first book so we could get it signed to be at the event.The whole trip was interesting.We avoided getting a ticket cause we got stopped and the cop  let us off when we told him we were on our way to see Sarah Palin.We dropped the girls off with my parents then went to get in line while we didn't  get our books signed Sarah came thru the line with Trig and we did get to talk with her for a few short minutes.I love her views I wish we had someone like her in office.